ok i have no idea what im doing with this.. i was taking 200mg of sertraline, the sexual side effects are fucking pissing me off, yes i would rather go back to depression than this.. its daunting and scares me a lot… even though my mood has lifted, and my energy is up, as well as my weight being down a lot.. i just cant do this :/ its not quite “right” it isnt half as good as mirtazapine.. something just isnt quite right, its like wearing a pretty shoe that doesnt actually fit ? so i dont know :( im going bac kto mirtazapine, i have 5 unopened packets here already from my previous use and i have absolutely no clue how to do this right.
so i dont care much for tapering off slowly, i never find discontinuation syndrome hard with ssri’s so ive gone from 200mg to 50mg this week, and unsurprisingly i feel nothing other than my energy fading away…and no more sertraline “buzz” feeling.. so.. i want to start mirtazapine as quickly as possible, idk what ill do.. mirtazapine is unpredictable, ive taken 5mg and felt extremely sedated and lethargic, yet ive taken 15 mg and felt like i was about to go into a coma.. and 20 mg feeling very energetic ?! right.. lets just say ill start at 5mg for tomorrow, ill take a tiny dose in the morning just to ease it back into my system and fuck i dont know how ill get through work being so sedated, ok ok ok whatever..
i currently have in my system then sertraline, diazepam, promethazine, loratadine and as of tomorrow mirtazapine, i do not even know if they go together but what the hell i just hope they do .
1 ssri, 1 benzodiazepine, 1 antipsychotic phenothiazine, 1 2nd gen. antihistamine, and one TeCA… so this is my cocktail.. i just hope it works out
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