I have never felt a more strange bluntness and disinterest in “hobbies” or everyday doings as I do now, it's very different and feels like my mind is suppressed somehow…I can't feel any excitement or “lift” or “adrenaline rush”, I just feel like standing in the same spot for hours, not sleeping and no appetite…. “Apathy” is listed as a side effect but is this really it… I feel so still and motionless…
I dont know... I feel very bored overall, like “I'm done” with everything...There is nothing of any interest to me, I can come go online and just predict what I'll see and nothing will mean anything. But the feeling seems to spread, I feel like my daily life actions mean nothing, laying in bed I just can't sleep on this medication, so it feels futile to go to bed, and waking up I cant eat because I have no appetite, I feel like my old “hobbies” that I had motivation to do (barely, rarely and very few might I add) just seem grey, everything just seems hazy and clouded over in the same grey tone...One example, I'm a heavy chocolate eater, I could eat it all day and everyday, and I stood next to a large shelf taller than myself full of chocolates today, it just seemed blank, unappetizing and everything looked the same, there was no spark of interest inside…And I know that isn't major or even “negative” in any way, but it was just an example…
Sertraline is making a mist over everything, it puts things into the same grey colour, and no I do not feel depressed like before, or worse… But that's because I am not feeling anything, others report emotional blunting but I couldn't imagine it for myself, and now I understand. I just feel so unmoved and still.
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