Today was not much different from others this week. I have work today and tomorrow, and then Sunday off, and back on Monday for another week… With a few moments off here and there, which I am grateful for deeply. I was thinking of going back to university to restudy in a different area, this year or next, but definitely by the year after that at least. Financially a little stretching, seeing as though I have other things to pay for monthly, personal care and bills. I think I'll finally get around to applying for DLA (Disability Living Allowance - UK) in this week, which I was told I am entitled to perhaps a year ago now, but never quite got the papers done. So at least that should give an extra £200 a month… It'll do, as long as I can stay afloat and afford time with my dearest. My only two essentials to working life…And life in general… !
I visited some shops today and all the same as usual everything just seemed not interesting and grey. I feel quite troubled by this feeling now, as I'm coming home and sitting in one position all night, not really eating anything, doing anything, even after forcing myself to run a bath it still felt quite hard to move… I really hope this will fade. I feel not much “pleasure” or interest from anything… It was managable at first, and noticeable after, but now its becoming a little unbearable and hard to manage… I can feel an uncomfortable distress and dismay, heavy chested pressured breathing and stabbing headaches even when at rest or laying in bed, it feels there is less and less escape…
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